Thursday, November 18, 2010

Where to begin?

I have tossed around making this blog a personal blog and wanted it to keep it as I started it but I am going to throw that to the side for just this day. I am hoping maybe I can help someone that has gone through what I have gone through for 16 1/2 years. Most of you come to my blog for scrapping/crafty ideas or my etsy finds and lets not forget my music lists. If this is too much personal info I am sorry but I need to get it out there. Most of my family have been told. The only people that I have not told are the people i work with. I figure they need not to know everything in my life. With all the strength of that day 16 1/2 years ago

here it goes...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................


161/2 years ago I gave a baby girl up for adoption something that I have had to deal with and struggled with for every year. I called an agency that was out of Boston to see my options. They flew me to Boston where I then went to the agency. I was given several adopted parent books to look through. I finally decided on a couple that I thought was the perfect match. a hard one, this would be her family for the rest of her life. I met them the next day.

to make a long story short. The couple sent me pictures and letters until she was 6. I also sent pictures/packages and letters After that I never received letters or pictures. It was the agreement that the agency had with adopted couple one, that i did not like but dealt with. On October 21 I received a letter from "hayley". I never thought I would see this day so soon ( well not soon enough). I cried with sadness and cried with happiness. You would never believe the emotions that i was feeling. I had them all! her letter stated she had been looking for me on facebook for a while but without any luck. As soon as I heard this I had to sign up on fb but just for her. The crazy thing is before I started working I googled her name, her adopted parents and brothers name. I had no clue what their last name was, mind you. There it was infront of me. I could not believe it. I had info that I never had. I even found out where she went to school and where they lived. Mind you I did not want it to use it for knocking at their door but I just wanted to see a pic. while on fb I could not find her by typing in her name so, I went to her adopted mom's name. She was not on her frineds list but I found a friend of hers that did. BINGO!!! sent her a message telling her I received her letter. We have been texting ever since and sending picture messages. It is the best feeling knowing she forgives me and that she loves me as much as I love her. She was going to visit for Thanksgiving but with tickets costing so much, it does not look like she will be coming . I will be visiting her in June.

remember to smile gina--=)