Dear bloggers

When I am down and feeling a little blah I DYE my hair. BLUE !!!!!

Rest in peace Margret we love you!!! (Dave's grandmother passed last week.)


I really feel like I live under a rock with my blog world of friends. Man, do I feel out of it and I am so sad to see how most of you can keep up with blogging while i am in this rut of non blogging. I remember there was a time where I would text Lindsay almost every day. My dear panda loving friend how I miss you. How about Carrie? We share the same love ---thrifts and Hello kitty! I miss you too. Miss my 80's loving and 80's blogging fool ( mean that in a loving way :) ) Kristie I miss you tons too. I miss reading Courtney's blog. How I could use a few make-up tips right about now. I miss reading Jamie's family fun( she has some pretty cool times with her family and I love that). Miss reading a lot of my scrapbooking blogs too. Okay, I miss scrapbooking :( makes me sad I do not get to scrap like i use to.

My blogging has slowed down since my job but I keep thinking I need to blog. The blogging makes feel good. Believe you me, my last post was so freeing. I felt so good knowing I could share and I thank everyone that sent me well wishes. THANK YOU!!!!! I was so nervous. Thank you for making feel 99% better. I will not be 110% until the day I get to put my arms around Hayley.

remember to smile gina

Where to begin?

I have tossed around making this blog a personal blog and wanted it to keep it as I started it but I am going to throw that to the side for just this day. I am hoping maybe I can help someone that has gone through what I have gone through for 16 1/2 years. Most of you come to my blog for scrapping/crafty ideas or my etsy finds and lets not forget my music lists. If this is too much personal info I am sorry but I need to get it out there. Most of my family have been told. The only people that I have not told are the people i work with. I figure they need not to know everything in my life. With all the strength of that day 16 1/2 years ago

here it goes...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

161/2 years ago I gave a baby girl up for adoption something that I have had to deal with and struggled with for every year. I called an agency that was out of Boston to see my options. They flew me to Boston where I then went to the agency. I was given several adopted parent books to look through. I finally decided on a couple that I thought was the perfect match. a hard one, this would be her family for the rest of her life. I met them the next day.

to make a long story short. The couple sent me pictures and letters until she was 6. I also sent pictures/packages and letters After that I never received letters or pictures. It was the agreement that the agency had with adopted couple one, that i did not like but dealt with. On October 21 I received a letter from "hayley". I never thought I would see this day so soon ( well not soon enough). I cried with sadness and cried with happiness. You would never believe the emotions that i was feeling. I had them all! her letter stated she had been looking for me on facebook for a while but without any luck. As soon as I heard this I had to sign up on fb but just for her. The crazy thing is before I started working I googled her name, her adopted parents and brothers name. I had no clue what their last name was, mind you. There it was infront of me. I could not believe it. I had info that I never had. I even found out where she went to school and where they lived. Mind you I did not want it to use it for knocking at their door but I just wanted to see a pic. while on fb I could not find her by typing in her name so, I went to her adopted mom's name. She was not on her frineds list but I found a friend of hers that did. BINGO!!! sent her a message telling her I received her letter. We have been texting ever since and sending picture messages. It is the best feeling knowing she forgives me and that she loves me as much as I love her. She was going to visit for Thanksgiving but with tickets costing so much, it does not look like she will be coming . I will be visiting her in June.

remember to smile gina--=)

music #2

Concrete Blonde--song--Joey
Michael Jackson--song---Dirty Diana
I can not say I have a favorite of Sonic Youth because they are one of my favorites.


Rolling Stones---song---Emotional Rescue (grew up listening to this band so it was a tough one to narrow down to one song but I do have other favorites. )

enjoy!!! gina

music

Gin Wigmore--song---Oh my ( only heard this song a few weeks ago but its one of my faves now due to her voice it got to me--:D )
Johnny Cash---song---Hurt ( okay i could not really make up my mind but this has to be one of his best from his later years before he passed away) ( also he had remade this song from Nine Inch Nails another great band )
Metric---song---Twilight Galaxy ( even though I love all the songs but this is my fave)
Matt and Kim---song---Good ol'fashion nightmare ( i love all the songs on this cd but this has to be my fave to get me in a awesome mood)

Here is a taste of some music I will be giving you. Every Monday i am going to feature music. If you are like me, music is a big part of my life. I love hearing songs from my younger years and how they spark a memory. I also love hearing new music that I have never heard before. My taste in music ranges from oldies to indie. As I type I am listening to the 80's--- John Waite-- missing you --is on. Okay a big part of my music library is the 80's one hit wonders but don't judge--:D xoxo gina

I want to shout out to all my friends in the blog world miss you like crazy --((HUGS)) to all of you.